Full speed ahead!

I don't know what's gotten into me. Maybe it's this autumn, my favourite time of the year, or the fact that I've finally recovered of that heartincident and -surgery I had more than year ago. Or maybe it's both! In anycase, it seems like nothing can stop me now. I'm full of energy and ideas and am super-excited about everything! I'm working on a contemporary art-project with my classmates, and I'm dreaming of my own artexhibition. I'm also working on on my thesis; my longtime product design-project, that hopefully someday will turn into a product that I can sell. Then there are some prints and patterns and stuff that I want to take to Heimtextil-fair in Frankfurt next spring. And have I mentioned that I'm dreaming of doing my practical training abroad? All that and some other stuff too, it feels like I was hyper! In the evenings I can't get sleep for all the ideas are running amok in my head. I guess I'm trying to catch up after holding back for a year.

I'm still attending my psychotherapy sessions every week, atleast till the end of this year. Only now, instead of going through the incidents and feelings of past year, I'm working on on my future, and am very happy about that. Also, I met my cardiologist in helsinki few weeks ago, and he said that everything was ok, and that we can now slowly start reducing my medication. Who would have known that recovering can take this long??

Inspiring autumn to you all!

Tiina

A lucky heart!

Trekking fever!

Yesterday I went to see my therapist for the first time in weeks. After I told her what I´ve been up to for the past few weeks, and what I´m looking forward to in the future we decided that I´ll start training again. 

From Inari, summer '09

I don't know whether its a good decision or not, but I have a goal and I want to reach it: next autumn Synja is arranging a hiking-meeting in Koli, and I want to take part. For years I've dreamed of going hiking in the summer in Lapland, but I´ve never managed to do that. When I was "healthy" I was always working and then last summer went by while recovering from the heart surgery. But this year, if my heart´s with me, I'm going trekking! And the best thing is, that I would be going with others who can't stride so briskly. So I wouldn´t have to saunter alone in the end of the line, calling for others to wait for me while I take another break. We´d be taking the break together.

Today, I came across an inspiring article about a blind lady who climbed the Pyrenees with the help of her dog and a man who scuba dived even though his legs were palalyzed. Truly nothing is impossible.

Tomorrow I'll call my physiotherapist so that we could plan my training together. I don't want to train too hard and end up in hospital after the first two weeks. It wouldn't be good for my plans.

Have you ever been hiking? Did you enjoy it?

-Tiina

A restless soul in the sun

Spring makes me restless. I want to go out, amidst people, of to adventure!

I would so, so much want to go traveling. Every day I'm thinking of all the possible places to go and see. Actually, allmost any place in the world would do. If I just could get out of this town and this country for a while. It feels like the earth under my feet was burning.

Years ago I felt the same and left to Ireland, where I stayed for one year. I was daring and didn't ask the doctors anything about going abroad. I was sure I could manage by myself, like I did too. But now I don't feel so secure. What if I get too tired, or something happens or my heart gets worse? Of course this time I wouldn't have to stay so long. Only for a week or two. And frankly, I.m living so aloof now, that if something happened it would take almost as long to travel from here to Helsinki, as it would take to fly there from pretty much anywhare in Europe. So, instead of worrying, I should start planning and saving money.

Yesterday I was out with my classmates. It was good fun, we had couple of ciders at the local pub called Malja. After that we went to Ida´s and played Trivial Pursuit and had little snacks. After Easter we're planning on going to bowling. Happiness is coming home late after spending a night out with friends.

-Tiina