Stressed out!

Right now, I guess for the first time during my studies in the Kuopio Academy of Design, I really hate my school. It's great that we get a chance to take part in the Heimtextil-fair in Frankfurt, but the workload just seems unreal. I mean 45 surface designs and 10 or something structure designs in one month! I'm not sure if I've done that many designs in the whole of my studies.. At this point I don't even think I'm gonna make it, I just wish I'll survive through this month somehow.

The positive thing about this all is, that I finally have some motivation to clean my room. Just like every other person, to avoid thinking and doing whatever I'm supposed to be doing, I start cleaning whenever pressures at school grow unbearable. I'm sure my flatmate thinks this could happen bit more often..

Love
-Tiina

So productive!

Today I went to school and for the first time for way too long stayed all day! I'm so happy I went and that I stayed all day till evening. Now I got my report half done. Actually more than half done, I'll finish it tomorrow! Also I got some new ideas for my next project and for that essay I wrote about last sunday. Such a funny feeling, after working all day, I feel like I'm full of energy and inspiration. Makes me wonder why dont I go to school every day..?

A while ago I read an article, where they said that between mammals, when stressed out, the female seek the closeness of the pack to relieve their stress. I was quite surprised 'cause I found it to be so true, based on my own experience. I think I wasn't so social a year or two ago but now, the best thing about going to school is that I get to see my classmates. Spending time with them, chatting and working brings me a feeling of normalcy. While at school, I don't have time to think about my illness. At school I'm just like everyone else. One of the pack.

Another thing I'm so happy about today is the notion that it seems that the diuretics doctors prescribed me are finally working. I´ve lost two kilos (of fluids) in a month and if I lose another two or three I'd be back in the shape I was before I got ill. It´d be the end of the preggo-talks. I'm not productive that way ;)

-Tiina