Breaking up.

My posts here are getting ever rarer, and rightly this is my last post here.

 I started this blog when I was depressed as an effort to make me try and think positive. Obviously I was already then getting better, for when my depression was at worst I couldn't even write how bad I felt. I don't think I'm healed from it altogether now either. But right now I'm feeling good enough, so that writing here doesn't feel relevant anymore. And I don't mean happyhappyjoyjoy-good time all the time, but the feeling of being content in my life right now. And of being excited about things and looking forward to stuff. Thats how I feel right now, mostly, and I don't need to write it here anymore so that I could notice it.

So this is my farewell to Hurdis, my almost a year-long resuscitation of happiness.

Kuva täältä

 Love,
-Tiina

Year 2012 in music.

My friend Anna did this and I'm shamelessly going to copy her idea. I'm two weeks late, but I guess that's my usual timing =)

Long walks with Robyn, I really didn't want to be in Kuopio.

I remember the awfull feeling everytime I left my honey in Oulu.

Adeles "21" played in loop in my phone through the spring.

I  really wanted to see Prodigy in Helsinki, but of course

 I was taken into the KUH intensive care unit a day before..

 My life really sucked  back then.

 

First of May and we were young! After very difficult and agonizing 

first half of the year things finally started to look better.

 

"My dear friend lets not forget, that we can take down Pinochet!"

Really empowering music.

 

I am a wonderlust king! Hichiking through the country..

It was a Bordello summer! All I missed was to see them live, but this summer I promise I will.

 

This one is for my dear friend Minna and her hubby. 

Thank you for the most beautifull day in 2012 <3

Jewish Ukrainishe Freundschaft. 

Walking, weaving and Photoshopping as fast as I could.

I was in a weird, unhealthy, state of mind in October.

After October my goal was to live a good life. 

Following that, I didn't get my school work done 

and didn't pass the courses.

Something blue for the darkening nights. 

I'm not sure whether I like Hugh better as a Musician or a Doctor.

I know I sometimes wished House was my doctor.

This is for my friends. It was the best dancing with You.

"Having troubles telling how I feel But I can dance, dance, dance" 

This one is for this year.. 

Love,

-Tiina

New year, old habits

I returned home from my holidays in Ivalo couple nights ago, and boy am I glad to see the sun again! In Ivalo they still have to wait another week or so before the sun rises again..

I loved spending Christmas together with my brothers, mum and dad. Despite the Christmas stress and fuss I think all in all we cleared the holidays well enough. I guess I had most fun when I went setting the fishing nets with dad and our dog Rölli. I helped dad pulling the nets under the ice and every now and then we sat in the car sipping hot tea from our thermos flasks. Rölli was running loose and wild with joy around the lake. The ice was thick enough to carry a car and after the nets were set I raced few laps on the track dad had made me. It seems I'm starting to like driving a car..

I spent the new years eve drinking wine with my old friend. We watched the fireworks and after I got home, I was going to cast some tin to foresee the future , but I forgot. I tried to come up with some new years resolutions but I didn't make any. I'm gonna save my resolutions till my birthday.

Love

-Tiina

Daylight on the lake Vuontisjärvi

My baby knows what I like, tea and delicacies!

Heading South towards the light.

Merry Christmas!

Wishing a very merry and peacefull Christmas to all my friends!
Love
-Tiina

Packing and jamming

Here I am again, packing my things. Tomorrow I'm heading to Lapland for christmas holiday. My backpack is already packed to its' limit and weights a ton. I still think I've forgotten something important.. Luckily I don't snowboard. Someday I would like to spend my christmas holiday where ever I am, without having to drag all my possessions along Finland for hundreds of kilometers .

Talking about christmas, I've come to a conclusion that my favourite christmas presents are either self-made, or delicious or both. So this christmas instead of running mindlessly around shops chasing presents,  I've been busy learning how to make jam and marmalade to give as presents to my family. It's been quite fun and maybe next year I continue my new hobby.

Now I have to go to bed, tomorrow is an early morning and I still have lot to do.

Love

-Tiina 

One breakfast jam coming up!

Awesome winter sky this morning..

..and afternoon.

Licence to drive!

Wohoo! I had my driving exam this morning and I passed it! I'm so so so happy! And anxious to drive on my own. Can't wait to get home to Ivalo and to borrow  dads' car..
Love
-Tiina

Tour of Finland

It's been a while again, sorry for that. Last week I spent working at school 12 hours a day. Every evening I got home feeling like I got hit by a train.

Now I'm on a self-proclaimed holiday, on a mini-tour around Finland, on my way to Helsinki. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow in Meilahti and I'm gonna spend the night at my friend Helenas'. During these past two years I've established a basecamp at her home for my visits in Meilahti. One good thing about this illnes; I get to see old friends more often;)

Tomorrow, on my way to Oulu, I'm gonna stop at Hämeenlinna for a night. Finally I get to visit Anna there. I've been planning on visiting her since she moved there almost three years ago , but haven't found the time and money for that untill now. We're gonna pop a bottle of Baileys and heal the world. Proper. I'm really looking forward to seeing them both.  It's always so inspiring to spend time with friends, and these two clearly have two main affects on me. With Helena I always get this urge to knit or weave and Anna inspires me to paint and draw constantly. I hope it works both ways.

Love
-Tiina

PS: since Väinö came to live with me, I've taken some 200-300 photos. But currently I'm having some tecnical problems (i.e. missing usb-cord) and my posts are still lacking photos..I hope I get to fix this soon.